Thought I would just ramble

Lately I've been thinking about the giant change of heart that changed my life...... Im talking about my conversion to the gospel. And I don't mean to be cheesy, or pour my soul out, but i dont even think that at this very moment or anytime lately that i can remember what brought me joy 2 years ago. I dont remember what i lived for. I suppose it was something like dance and friends brought me laughter and happiness, and my family made me feel like i belonged, i dont think i knew what joy was. I had an [amazing for me at that time] boyfriend who was my whole world, a pom squad that made me stay glued together because they needed me, and a family that as imperfect as it was, did its best to remain whole.

But now I have a purpose, I have a mission, I know what im doing here, I know where im going, I know what brings me joy, and I know what I will never let in my life again to tear it down to where it once was. I know I am a beautiful daughter of my Heavenly Father and that he loves me. I know i have a savior who died for me, {think about that}, I have someone who loved me so much, who didnt want me to suffer any pain ever that he DIED for me. I have a sure awareness of what matters in life, I smile every single time someone makes fun of me for a choice i make in my life because i know its usually because that choice brings me one step closer to my Heavenly Father, and draws me one step away from the binds of this world and the natural man way of living. I know why the temple is so important. I know what brings me joy, and will not go on without personal joy!

I love the gospel...... I love my life